DRUNK POST.

It's around 9:30 in the evening. I'm drinking to force my body to sleep. I'm up for a week of morning shift  starting tomorrow. It's the last day of January. Tomorrow I'd have to wallow for the fact that my boyfriend's not gonna be here on V-day. But that's okay. If I can find someone to go out with. Of course I ain't doing that. 

I'm supposed to pass my resignation letter weeks ago but some of my colleagues at work is resigning as well, being a good employee, I decided to delay the parting not to make the transition difficult. (I know I'm not making any sense here.) 

There are time that I just want to go out of the city somewhere really far away... I just don't want to think. I want to clear my mind. I don't want to think of work, of how am I going to earn money to save up for my US trip, my not to long engagement with my boyfriend of one year and 4 months, my plans of living in another country. I just want to get out of all the stress. Oh how I wish I can do that. I just want to be with someone who's not going to be so judgmental. I want that person to listen. just listen. I don't need any opinions I know what to do. I know what I want in life. I just need someone. 

I don't have any problems. I just complicated things. that's what I'm good at. 

there. I've said everything. for now. 

16th.

Yesterday was our 16th month. If you're counting year it'll not count. let me do this post anyways. I'm trying to put into words how much I feel for this guy. He still loves me more than I love him. Unfortunately, he's still crazy and a pain in the butt sometimes. But I adore him to bits. 

Yesterday was the same as always. We spent time online talking about anything and everything. I remember we talked about Lapu-Lapu and Magellan. That's one think I like about Us, we can talk and talk all day everyday and never get tired of each other. We talked about our plans in the future. Something we're not sure of. (heck, we need spontaneity here. that should give spice to everything)

It was a normal day but knowing that we're still together after all this time despite the distance, it was hella good. :) 

Bibi, Thank you. please don't get tired of me. 

love, 

Bibi gerl.  

Maybe life will be a little different if I haven't met you at all. That all of these will never exist... that I don't have to be confuse. I've got a lot of things going in my head. You screw things up and you're not even aware of it. I wish I could tell you everything. Maybe in another life. 

We'll always have this.