You'll miss me when I'm gone.

In a split second I was there. 

He never had to ask. 

I was all he needed

...well that's what I thought. 

He was everything I hoped for. I almost gave it all. 

But in a snap it changed everything. Like I woke up from a dream. 

That's when I walked away. No explanations. No expectations. 

Without looking back, vanished without a trace. 

Oh shit.

You make my heart skip a beat. Not really a good feeling. But it seems so right. I will try hard to stop these feelings going on further. I know you're trouble. people like you always do.

Four months and counting.

The last time it was the end of 2012. Time flies so fast and I didn't even notice that my probation at work is almost over. You may ask me how's working in a casino- hotel? I would really happy to tell you that's it's much better to drink til 3AM in the slot machine than to stay up until 2 AM smiling and greeting your guests Buon Giorno. It takes a lot of getting used to actually. At first I would end up teary eyed after every shift because of wearing 3 - inch heels for 9 hours ++. (After months of complaining the management decided to allow us to wear 1 - inch heels.) I can now fulfill the duties of an average receptionist in a fine dining setting. (at least I thought I was) and I am developing a love for Italian food. I do love the cuisine. But this time, it's love. 

I'm kinda sleeping now so many I'll cut it from here. I could update this anytime anyway because I gots myself a new and improved Netbook. (That's what they call Laptops now right?)

Hello World.

You maybe thought that I finally got a job since I've been avoiding writing to you. well, no. I don't have one. yet. But I did give a copy of my resume to Papa. Well, he sort of know someone that knows someone in the Hotel/Casino thing. And he was hoping that person can squish me. I'll take any job. seriously. I just need to do something really productive especially now... that I have no idea when and how am I going to go to the States. (My visa application is still on process and my boyfriend... I can't pressure him to work harder and earn money and get me house in San Francisco. I just can't) I'm actually giving him two years.. I don't mind waiting for another year here.

Anyway,I've been perfectly well. just got back from Tacloban. I went there with the family for my father's birthday. This year he wanted to celebrate it with his childhood friends. He even bought goodies for families who needed help. goodie bags contained rice, canned good and some noodles. Nice huh?

He did managed to get every visitor drunk with beer and Tuba. (some kind of Palm Wine.) and they started dancing to Gangnam Style. it was fun and kinda ridiculous if you know what I mean. but fun. I did enjoy the weekend but I wish I can bring the boyfriend with me. maybe next time. 

next time. 

okay I'm tired. I wanna drink! 

Ciao! 

A slight change.

For the reason I wanted to make my page a lot more personal, I got myself an online signature from Mylivesiganture.com. Actually I found the site a week ago. Thought they gonna charge you for your sign, so I bailed on the idea. after reading more thoroughly, I got it. hehehe. (I was a bit in a rush that day)

Well anyway... here it is. =)