I'm writing again...

... these letters to you, on much I know.

To realize that I still think of you after all this time. I wonder where you are and how things are going for you. Good things, such good memories they haunt me. But in a good way. It's as if I'm wishing for it to happen again.

But I know it will not. Every smile, every conversation, every feeling. It was only just a dream. 

On Horrible Bosses.

I saw a post from a use-to be colleague. She was ranting about her boss that work gets a lot more stressful whenever they're in the same shift. I couldn't help but to smile. I admit, it's hell when that boss is around. I hated her when she's not in the mood but it gets a whole lot better when she gets chocolates and cigarettes... if you get what I mean. and I'm not kidding, she loves those.

I remember working on a PM shift, I was dead tired and could no longer think straight. In my former job, I file telex messages from HKG and other ports to their designated folders. the files are distributed according to the flight numbers for that day. Well, the flight numbers are the same every single day so the filing gets easier.

I was doing my own thing then she came. I hated it when she goes to work. She very demanding, unpleasant, not very approachable. People hesitate to talk to her because of her character. She's like that itch on your back you couldn't get your hands on. Or that screeching sound your nails make in the chalk board. She's not annoying really, well it can get to that when starts talking. You should hear her voice. It's very.. I should say.. unique?

I wish I can describe you what my favorite boss looks like or how she does things. I admit I hated her guts but she's my favorite. One of my favorites actually. She can be a pain in the ass back then but I learned a lot from her. I mean come on! I did endure a lot of PM shifts with her. not to mention the flights in those days were either a.) Delayed. b.)Delayed c.)nothing. just plain Delayed. During free time, whenever she's free, she would teach me things about work. mostly technical. I loved her because of that.

I came to love her because of the things other people hated about her. I don't know, a little miss maybe?

and now.... the end is near? nah.

Before this year ends, i'd like to look back on everything that took place this year. I have this need to acknowledge everything and everyone that made this year awesome and exciting.
I came so fast. I didn't even realize that it's almost Christmas and another year is right around the corner. so let me have this opportunity to have my say on some things.

I thank the Lord for giving me this year full of opportunities and trials. If it weren't for Him, I wouldn't be here. For all the blessings He bestowed on me and my family and my loved ones... thank you. To God be the glory!

To my friends for being there. I know ... I know ... I lack social life and I rarely hang out with you guys. I just realized, we're indeed getting older. Grown ups don't go out with their friends anymore. the just work. It's just me.. i am getting older. I know I don't have the time to see you. I hope that you understand that I prefer sleeping than drinking. hehe. I know that I get to talk to you on Twitter, Facebook or through SMS. I know I ditched a lot of night outs with you. I'm sorry. I don't promise that i'll be different next year, that I will go out with you guys. haha. Because I won't. But I will try. Alam niyo naman ako.. masyadong seryoso sa buhay. nagpapayaman. I hope the best for all of you and your families. Nawa'y tayong lahat ay yumaman.

To my family, Ma, Pa, Thank you for giving me money to gas up Elmo every week though you make me feel bad every Sundays. You know what I mean. For getting me free food everytime you guys go out. (kahit sapilitan yun) i know I can't get to be with you because of work. (I know I always blame work) Sorry I don't get to give you gifts this Yule. Saka nalang kapag I earn dollars. ;) I love you guys.

To my work: YOU ARE ONE HELL OF A BITCH SOMETIMES. I hate delays, miscons, hotacs, irate pax, offloaded, yung mga pasaherong maaasim na wala naman sa lugar. You can be really unfair. But thanks to you I get to have a new experince, new friends, horrible and not-so horibble bosses. Thank you for making me feel the joy of getting the money you've worked for so hard in the ATM machine. The joy of getting free food during delays (Aglio Olio + Buffalo wings + Pumpkin soup yum! yum!)


To my one and only: Words aren't really enough. I will make this short but sweet. You're by far the best has yet to come. and I thank you for being there despite the distance. I know somehow we'll get through this like we always do. I love you. 

Wanderlust.

It's been a year since I got all excited for my US trip. I feel like I want to do it all over again. Maybe it's true that I have a lust for traveling. So much that I don't care how much money I got as long as I get to where I wanna be. Well actually, the only thing that stops me is my job and my salary. With the money I'm making, I won't be able to save for a plane ticket going to SFO.

He promised me a Europe trip once we get together. OMG OMG OMG. Paris. I've always wanted to go to Paris. Winter is the best time to go there. February. oh, yes. We both have a thing for travelling. another reason why we get along with each other. Though sometimes we fight because of road directions. but OMG OMG OMG. PARIS?!