Baker Beach - San Francisco, California

Yesterday, the boyfriend and I planned to stay indoors thinking that we can clean his house just in time for the movie. He's a huge Batman fan. There was a time at a mall that we almost bought this $30 worth of DJ headphones and sweater. Good thing I only have $20 in my wallet and the sweater is for girls only. I kinda dig the hoodie though. Well, we almost started cleaning the house until my best friend which happened to be my boyfriend's sister planned an impromptu trip to San Francisco... to that beach where you can see the Golden Gate Bridge from a distance. Thinking that it's a good time hanging out with his family, we decided to tag along. Plus, I wanted to use Diana, My Lomo cam whose been hanging out with the dust in his drawer.

It was a Sunny day Sunday yesterday but I had to wear a jacket because it's so windy. I always wear a jacket since I got here. I get chilly easily, I had to sleep with a comforter every night. The weird thing here is when it's Summer, its really really hot. Not like Manila-hot. When the weather reaches 80 degrees, you don't  want to go outside. It suffocates you, you don't get sweaty at all, but it's really hot. It melts your brains. But when night time comes, it's very cold. very weird huh?

I'm really not sure why but I noticed that the water here in California is really cold. I wanted to take a dip but nevermind. It's ice cold. I wonder if its like that in Florida. Now I wanted to go back in Boracay.

Anyway, here's some of the pictures taken yesterday. Actually Jeff's planning to take me here before heading back to Manila. Now, I got what I wanted. :)

The countdown starts..

I only have a month to go then I'll be heading back to Manila. There goes my plans of staying here for good. The parents asked me to go back so they can re-new their US visa. So I can too. They told me I can always go back once I got a new visa. Come to think of it, I've got nothing to do here so why waste time doing nothing? I can't even work here. But to be honest, since I'm staying away from home, I learn to quite few things. The boyfriend taught me how to cook, I do his laundry and mine every two weeks (or whenever I need a new set of undies), I learn to change soiled diapers (my bestfriend has a one year old tot now) that's just some of the things but basically I learned how to do things on my own. I felt like I can be organized not only at work. hihihi.. I'm a bit O-C at my workplace.

I wonder... when I get home, it's gonna be back to normal. I'm going to be that boring person again going out every afternoon to the mall getting Takoyaki and Yakisoba. Drinking Tanduay Ice every other night while munching on chicharong bulaklak. I'll be that boring girl waiting for her Ipad to ring. I'll stay up all night just to wait for him to wake up. There's that time difference again. <I'm hearing Simple Plan's song in the background>

Been doing mental plans for that day too. On what to do when I get back home. I'm planning to get some stuff so I can decorate my room. Thinking of what to do during my free time. maybe some books. <sigh>

Maybe I'll go road tripping? I don't know. Maybe get a job? hehehe.

I don't really wanna go home. everyone knows that. I'm trying to be optimistic by thinking that when I go home, I can pimp my room. Thinking that I can hang out with my friends again. That I can have kwek kwek and Takoyaki with that cold Tanduay Ice. I don't want to but I have to. That's two different things I guess.

Jeff and I have plans of living together and we need to straighten out some things. sa madaling salita, kailangan namin ng pera. Like business we need capital to start a life. So basically that's the reason why I have to go home. While I'm here he can't save money (lalo na ako... bilmoko ako e) and I can't get a job here anyway..  so yeah.. that's the reason..  14.2


I hope everything will be better. We'll be apart for I don't know how long... and I am not sure what it'll do for me. Hope it won't last long. 

What's it like?

So, the last time I wrote about me being away from home was like 3 months ago. next month I'll be heading back home. back to my usual lifestyle. But until the plane I'm taking gets here, I shall make the most out of it. I've kinda adjusted here. But to be frank, I'm still a sissy when it comes to talking to strangers, from the neighbors to the Vietnamese girl at Lee's Sandwiches. I am not even sure if she's Vietnamese! I don't know, maybe that what's wrong with me. I am really shy. okay. But i'm aside from that I'm doing just fine.

I've been making mental plans about how to get through life for the next few months because I'm pretty sure it's going to be a long long long wait for me to get my ass back here. To be honest, yeah... I have plans of staying here for good. COME ON! this is America for crying out loud. who wouldn't want to live here if they have a chance? 

It's just that right now, I feel really sad at the thought of living away from him for the next i-don't-know-and-i-have-no-idea-how-long x number of months. If my visa application will go smoothly maybe by the middle of next year. But I am positive that I won't be able to celebrate Christmas here. 

But for now, it's time to watch another movie. 

I'M SMOKE FREE and I'm 24!

Celebrated my 24th birthday yesterday. I'm still here in California staying with my boyfriend and his family. It's been two months. We planned to go to downtown San Francisco. I planned to go thrifting but I started to have a bad case of sniffles. It was prolly because I got caught in the rain the other day and some symptoms of Nicotine Withdrawal. (that's right, I stopped smoking days ago.)

I woke up feeling really heavy. So there goes our trip to the north. Stayed in the bed until lunch time and headed to the South to Santa Cruz. T'was a very simple day. I don't want to make a fuss anyway. I didn't bother to have some friends and invited them for a drink to death party. I am way over that. And that what makes me really old huh?

Come to think of it, I am old. Old enough to make decisions with my life. I know I am but why am I scared? I'm in the other side of the planet and I'm afraid to tell my parents that I'm not going back anymore. (not yet.) I'm afraid to tell them that I'm planning to stay with Jeff. I'm afraid that they will get a ticket and go straight to the US and make me go home. (I had my share of those moments back in Highschool) I'm afraid that they would get mad at me and be disappointed. I don't want to do it again. I know there's no other way, I can't go back home and be away from him again. I mean, we're already together. I just don't know how to tell them. But I really have to right?

ugh. I'm having my quarter life crisis. It's not even a week after my birthday!

A taste of freedom. a two week report.

it's been two weeks since I got here. It's for vacation mostly. Everyone knows na kaya ako pumunta dito to visit my bestfriend and her daughter and my Bibi. I will be staying here for two months although pinayagan ako ng Homeland Security ng 6 months stay. If I'm crazy enough I can stay here until September. Not like my vacation two years ago, I'm just staying here in California. Plans of visiting some people will depend on my mood. joke. feel free to get in touch with me, my American friends. hahaha.

It's getting really boring. I wake up everyday at around 10am. cook breakfast (mostly eggs and bacon), have lunch in some restaurants nearby at around 3pm. dinner at 8pm. if i get lucky, i get to drink a bottle or two.
i've been to some places. like the Golden Gate Bridge, Lombard St, Lake Tahoe to see the snow for the first time. it was fun. =) feels like playing with sugar only you're freezing to death. ;) next week i'm going to Los Angeles to meet some friends. Been eating like a horse here. lamon ako ng lamon. ewan ko ba ginagawa akong patabaing baboy dito na kakatayin pagdating ng fiesta.

Ngayon ko lang nagawa ito kase busy ako. I'm so busy doing nothing. I'm here with Jeff sa City Library. nagaaral siya para sa exam niya next month. ako naman nagbabasa ng libro about Stars and Planets. oha! para hindi mapudpod ang utak. Okay naman ako dito. masaya. nageenjoy nga ako e. Iba nga talaga ang buhay Pinas at America. kalsada palang makikita mo na. hangin palang. pero madami din naman akong namimiss na Pinas ngayon. I kinda miss home sabi nga nila.

Ngayon ko lang naisip na Biyernes Santo pala. kita mo na. ang layo ko pala talaga.

Boring dito. you won't see people outside, Walang sari sari store to buy a piece of cigarettes. Cigarettes here are fucking mahal! gusto kong tumigil since I got here. I follow this one-stick-a-day routine. kita mo na kahit ako konyo na.

namimiss ko yung isaw, yung mausok na nagiihaw ng isaw. yung kwek kwek, yung maingay na kapitbahay na nagvivideoke, yung mga lasing sa kanto, nakakamiss. gusto mong pumunta ng mall? magdrive ka. hindi uso ang mga jeep at tricycle. malulula ka sa Cable TV mo dahil naguumapaw ang mga channels. sa dami, hindi mo na alam kung anong papanoorin mo, may Red Horse nga lasang tubig naman. walang Gin bulag. merong SKY VODKA. (sosyal!)

sabi ni Jeff lahat andito na sa America na. sabi ko hindi rin!

so next time ulit.